Emotionally Not Okay

I consider heartbreak a good excuse to eat something sweet.
the end.

Agghhhh

Strugglinggg
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I attended two grad parties today, one of which was also a birthday party.
I ate food because it was good. Shit happens.
Besides that I've been doing semi okay.
I just need to get out of this rut I'm falling into.

HELLLLPPP!
kthx

Not So Good Day

So today was a not so good day. The good news is that I anticipated it to be a not so good day. I will not call it a bad day because putting myself down won't help me.
Today, for those of you who are unaware, was $1.50 cheesecake day at Cheesecake Factory. They are celebrating their 30th year anniversary and therefore made cheesecake the price that it was in 1978. Well... I love dessert. AND guess what my favorite dessert is... cheesecake. So my brother, my mom, and I went out to the Cheesecake Factory for lunch. I ordered a small caeser salad, an individual pizza, and the 30th annual cheesecake. HOWEVER, on the good side, I only ate half of the individual pizza and like three quarters of the cheesecake. Obviously still not healthy, but I could've eaten all of it which would've been worse.
The bad news is I worked tonight. I work at Dairy Queen. There was a lot of mess ups which normally I can resist. But today I had a couple bites of each mess up =/ (which is more than it sounds like).
Silver lining: that is all I ate today, which in the total isn't a lot and isn't too too too terrible.

Tomorrow though I will get back on track. I will eat healthy and exercise. I won't let one bad day bring me down. Although, I will finish the last half of my individual pizza which is probably the equivalent of one slice of pizza. I will have that and only that for lunch. Then I plan on having a salad for dinner maybe with some meat. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Until next time
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Step One.

Hey everyone. My name is Heather and I'm here to change.
Okay. So i realize this isn't anything like Alcoholics Anonymous. But just because i'm not an alcoholic does not mean that I do not need help. In fact, there are other addictions in the world that are not drug or alcohol related.
My problem is that I love food. It's not that I am obese and i'm not really all that big, but I could be on my way to adult obesity.
Here is what sucks. Food, unlike alcohol and smoking, is something your body needs to live. It's not like I am addicted to cigarettes and can stop all together. Food is something that you have to eat everyday in order to survive. Basically, you HAVE to feed your addiction (unless you decide to not eat at all but that could resort in death).
My plan is to write on here everyday. I want to tell everyone about my progression... or (God forbid) my regression. I will tell you my entire experience because I know for one that losing weight is an emotional experience that too many people have to deal with.
I want to deal with mine now. I plan to eat better and exercise properly for life. No fad diets, all me. Eating good choices and liking good choices will help me stick to it and make what I eat a life style choice. Writing on here everyday might help me stay with it and reach my goal.

Remember: You eat to live. You don't live to eat.

This here is step one of the three R's.
[X] 1) Realization. (I realized that I have to change)
[ ] 2) Reformation. (I will go through the change)
[ ] 3) Replacement. (I will replace a new, healthier body with my old one)

::my apologies for the long entry::